Back to the real world; it isn’t so bad

Wow, so. I re-read my last post, and I was full of anger, wasn’t I? That was before I went to NYC and before I started school full time again. It’s only understandable that I wanted to shoot myself in the foot and call it a day. I still work that job, but in little doses. Nothing more than 10-12 hours per week, which is enough for me. Though it would be nice to have more cash. I guess we can’t have it all, now can we!

So my trip to NYC went super well! I had the time of my life, it was a very unique and exhilarating experience that could never be beat. The things that happened and the people that I was with all made everything so surreal and pleasant. I don’t think I’ve ever been so intensely happy for 4 days straight. I spent a shit load of money though! I brought back so much stuff, the shopping that we did was almost like a marathon. Every morning we’d wake up and go on our shopping journey of the day, always in a new neighborhood, haha. Also, the highlight (for me) was eating those delectable Magnolia cupcakes. I almost died when I first bit into one. You don’t know how long I had been craving them. Mission accomplished! It was the best time of my life. Honestly.

photo by cupcakequeen

School started exactly a week after my return. Actually it was more like 5 days later. Nonetheless, it was nice to see my friends again and catch up on what everyone did during the summer. Everyone seemed more tanned and thin or fit to me, which made me so jealous because all I did was gain weight. Lovely. I got to make new acquaintances as well, which was awesome, I love meeting new people. All in all, school isn’t so bad so far. The workload is quite impossible but I do my best.

And that’s it. Nothing exciting happens in my life. Everytime friends ask me what’s new, I have nothing to say. I want something to happen so I can talk about it! LOL.

Grumble grumble.

Wow. I am so not being productive today.

This morning I was thinking of just calling in sick at work, and staying in bed. But then I figured, I’m at least gonna take a shower and see if I feel better. No. I got out of the shower feeling dizzy and nauseous. Then I thought, ok well I’ll at least dry my hair, maybe that will distract me and make me feel better. And it did. And then I got dressed, and had breakfast, and forgot all about feeling like crap. But then I got into the car, and realized it was rainy and gray outside, and cold. It really doesn’t feel like it’s July 20. It feels like it’s September 20. The weather is horrible over here. My dad keeps saying “We’re in London!” because of the constant rain and cool air. I keep remembering that we’re in Canada thanks to the intense humidity that I can never seem to escape. Gosh, it makes me feel like dying, that fucking humidity. I hate it so much.

When I got to work I just felt like going back to bed, and the nausea returned. After an hour and a half of not doing anything, I decided I needed some sugar, or at least something to wake me up without making me feel more nauseous. Exit the coffee, enter the vanilla latté. There were no more croissants downstairs, so I settled for a low-fat muffin with dried fruit in it. It was deeelish!

And now, here I am. Not in the mood to do anything at all. That’s how it’s been all week. I’m really feeling down when I’m here, I wish it wasn’t like that. What the heck is wrong with moi. *sigh*

Hey this is pretty cool: today is 20-07-2007. Mahaha…