Italy was wonderful, emotional, breathtaking. It was the perfect summer.
I’m ready for Autumn now.
As we were, so perfect, so happy.
Our cracking voices became part of the music.
The car pressed on faster through the night. As our voices lowered,
The cadence again overtook the air.
Up ahead there was a curve approaching.
She made no indications of slowing.
Man, I love that song.
I feel so sick right now, physically that is. Doctor tonight. And 5 days until my flight to Italy. I can’t wait!
Also, I’m not sure if I’m numb towards him because I didn’t invest myself emotionally, or if it’s the meds. Or both. But I do know that the old Jessica would be very hurt and sad right now. The new Jessica doesn’t feel a thing. She desires, but she doesn’t feel.
It’s over, I’m leaving.
I think I would enjoy studying at NYU.
Wow, so. I re-read my last post, and I was full of anger, wasn’t I? That was before I went to NYC and before I started school full time again. It’s only understandable that I wanted to shoot myself in the foot and call it a day. I still work that job, but in little doses. Nothing more than 10-12 hours per week, which is enough for me. Though it would be nice to have more cash. I guess we can’t have it all, now can we!
So my trip to NYC went super well! I had the time of my life, it was a very unique and exhilarating experience that could never be beat. The things that happened and the people that I was with all made everything so surreal and pleasant. I don’t think I’ve ever been so intensely happy for 4 days straight. I spent a shit load of money though! I brought back so much stuff, the shopping that we did was almost like a marathon. Every morning we’d wake up and go on our shopping journey of the day, always in a new neighborhood, haha. Also, the highlight (for me) was eating those delectable Magnolia cupcakes. I almost died when I first bit into one. You don’t know how long I had been craving them. Mission accomplished! It was the best time of my life. Honestly.
photo by cupcakequeen
School started exactly a week after my return. Actually it was more like 5 days later. Nonetheless, it was nice to see my friends again and catch up on what everyone did during the summer. Everyone seemed more tanned and thin or fit to me, which made me so jealous because all I did was gain weight. Lovely. I got to make new acquaintances as well, which was awesome, I love meeting new people. All in all, school isn’t so bad so far. The workload is quite impossible but I do my best.
And that’s it. Nothing exciting happens in my life. Everytime friends ask me what’s new, I have nothing to say. I want something to happen so I can talk about it! LOL.
I’m really getting excited about my trip to NYC with J, M and M-F. Eating hot dogs from a street vendor, shopping on Canal and partying like little high school girls on crack in Manhattan sounds like the best time of my life! I’m getting a little nervous about my financial situation though. I don’t think I’ll be able to spend so much over there. It’s making me really stressed out. I don’t want to have any limitations in NYC. I guess that means I will have to save up and do some wise choosing of cheap stuff once I’m there. As in, really crappy food VS really nice purchases. Hmm not a very tough choice if you ask me.
It’s pretty obvious that once I’m there I’m going to go to all the stores and restaurants that we don’t have here. Besides, I’m not going there for the amazing food or clothes, I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to afford that stuff anyway… I’m going for the cosmetics, the accessories, the shoes, the bags! Ooooh I can’t wait!
Back to work now… gotta get that $$$ to be able to spend it all.
PS: An update on the weird stalker guy. He has called me 3 times since I last posted. And texted me. I am seriously wondering what is going through his mind? I doubt that I set his hopes up high.
