I was reading old journal entries of mine, and when I mean old, I don’t mean extremely old, I mean last year (!!!!!!!) and it’s absolutely ridiculous how immature I was. Just one year, and I feel like I have changed entirely. Maybe I’ve learned to shut up, which is a little sad but it’s sparing me lots of embarassing moments. My heart still feels the same about those two guys though. But I’ve become more realistic about our relationship. And realistically, I think I can barely call them friends. They still manage to surprise me with sweet phone calls and cute words, but realistically, I have to think nothing of it, because it means just that: nothing.
[edit] I miss saying “my boyfriend”.
Shutting up now.
