I Could Really Use A Wish Right Now

It’s OK to dream hope…

I Change Shapes Just To Hide In This Place

I’m still trying to make my mind up.

P#1 is probably not the right one. I know this because when I don’t look at him while he is talking, nothing happens, I don’t feel a thing. But when I turn around and look up at his face, his smile, his arms, his height, his pierced ears, the edge of his tattoos peeking through his t-shirt sleeve… I can’t help myself. “*HUG* Message me this week. Don’t wait for the weekend. Sleep well!” /melt

P#2 is probably the right one. I’m beyond excited to see him again. Because with him, it’s easy, and it’s funny, and I don’t even have to try. And he’s doing everything right. Dinner on Wednesday and it looks like he’s just as happy about it as I am. So nice, for a change.

Well, I have nothing to decide for now, but it’s fun to be the object of not only one but two men’s affections. How long can I keep this up? Meh, who needs to think about it.

You Like To Act Tough, I Like To Show ‘Em Off

Go ahead, you know you want it.

If I could, I’d just go touring the world with skater boys and surfer boys, the occasional cool chicks tagging along with us, good music blasting all the time, doing yoga in the morning, surfing in the afternoon and skating on weekends. Night time, we’d all go out with the hipsters and the beautiful people. The beach, the sun, the love would be our life. The only girls I’d want with me are MFN, JB and MM. Paris, Tokyo, NYC, Cali, London, Oz, Hawaii. I want to see it all. I want to meet Lupe, and tell him how he’s managed to add to my periphery a whole other lifestyle. And that his music makes me happy, the kind of happy I don’t think I’ve ever known. It doesn’t involve people, or substances; it just makes me feel good, which is some kind of wonderful. I’d make money off of tee designs and concert/show posters, magazine layouts and the occasional web site. That’d give me lots of doe. I’d take the coolest shots of my scrumptiously talented surf&skate buddies, and my girls & I would soak it all up, be glam, be healthy, be happy, be free of any sort of restriction or rule. We’d be tanned as hell, too. I just can’t picture life being anything better than that. Travelling the world with hot dudes, my favorite friends, and the best music ever.

It could happen.